what if i rewrite the stars?

say you were made to be mine ...

7 years since the first time i saw you and i still love you.

grade 7, i saw you first in our flag ceremony and you were laughing so hard that you dont care for anyone who was watching you. 

that moment, i already experienced the phenomenal 'slow motion'.

im contented seeing you from a far. 

grade 8, i already forgotten about you or so i thought because i finally had my first girlfriend, venice, i loved her so much. 

grade 9, i dont know if it is destiny but you became my classmates. 

i love my girlfriend but i dont want to miss any chance of being close with you. 

grade 10, everything went so smooth, im so happy for our sitting arrangement because you were close to my eyes. 

you teach me math, i love seeing you frustrated while solving the math equation and here i am staring and smiling

you also teach me solving a rubiks cube and im the luckiest man that ever lived because you hold my hands like i mattered to you

but what excites me is that you wanted me to become your partner in our PE dance group. 

i love this school year said by 15 years old me. 

i run/ran as SSG Officer to prove myself to you and luckily i won and you were happy with the results. 

but on our summer vacation, i learned to your cousin that you were going to have different school with me. 

without thinking, 

i rejected my position in our former school

i dont listened to my friends

i broke up with my girlfriend in our 2nd anniversary

just to be with you. 

Grade 11, i dont know your strand but i asked your section and i asked the school director to have me as your classmate and he agreed. you were surprised (actually my plan) as you saw me having the same section with you. 

i was so close to you that everyone thought that we are a couple. 

we are always together before and after the school

you even introduced me to your parents. 

i did everything you said

but 

you tricked me because months passed, you introduced to us your first ever boyfriend. 

i was so broken hearted but i didnt tell you  

im so martyr that i even supported you and saimon. 

i've waited for you and him to break up because that's all i want to have a chance with you

grade 12,  i was busy in our church that i didnt even noticed that i didnt yet enrolled the same section with you. i was so hopeless and broken hearted. 

but it helps me to move on, to forget you.

but as days passed by, you hold the big part of me. i couldn't forget you and im missing you big time. 

1st year college,  i already accept the fact that you are not going to be mine. 

you are my almost that will never going to happen. 

i know you knew that i want you, that i like you more than enough

i want to move on but i dont know how. 

everytime i'd tried, you always chatted me or replying in my tweets. 

how can i suppose to move on if you are always do that? 

please, get off in my mind. 

i love you Shania Miryne L. Paguio 

please take care, my Shami